hey rich. it’s been 2 months since so many of your friends’ lives were changed. its weird, but i haven’t gone 1 day not thinking about you homie. i feel like we never left with a good note. i realized i used you a lot for what you knew and what could benefit me, even though we did hang out and talk a lot. i wish i could’ve been a better friend. it’s weird to think how much i actually remember the small things we used to do before you went off to be with God. it sucks thinking about how you’re gone man. whenever i see your fb wall or our old conversations it reminds me of how much i really do miss you. when we played survival on cod modernwarfare3. when you’d always make me food even though you barely had enough to last you through the week. when we’d have rap battles in the car rides up north or to connexion. when we’d pretend to fight and yell and just laugh it off. when you’d do your rendition of dubstep. when you would give me a hug. when you’d say, “bro i love you man”. when you’d say “doooooooooooood”. when you’d laugh at my dumb jokes. when you’d show me awesome songs. when you would reassure me that i am a unique person with capabilities to do many things. i’ve been having a hard time without you rich. i subconsciously blame God for you being gone. I feel like i have to protect myself from losing more people and put up a wall of lies and no trust. you would always hang out with me man. even 2 months later it’s such a touchy subject to talk about how you left. but don’t worry richard, i’m trying my best to bounce back up. i know you’re with God and that pleases me to know you’re doing well. i’m going to work on my relationship with God. it’s really rocky right now but i’m trying rich. i’ve been trying to go to connexion like i promised you… but i think i might be switchin churches so kenny said maybe i should not come… lol but yeah man. i’m gonna get close to God and i’ll see you again. and no, it’s not just to see you man, thats a bonus. i’m doing this for myself. but yeah rich, you influenced my life so much. i love you man. just keep lookin down and give me those gentle nudges towards the right path. you’ll never be forgotten by me.